is it cliche to ask you if you've ever thought of the right thing to say but the right moment already passed? is it cliche to ask you questions when i don't even know who is reading this? (except mom. hi mom.) it's a bit passive aggressive, yes? or expected. at the very least it is unoriginal.
i write emails to a dead friend on facebook. whenever he pops into my head. sometimes they are angry emails. sometimes not. a part of me wonders if he is reading them. like maybe there is an internet cafe somewhere between here and where your lungs explode if you're not wearing a suit and he is sitting there, smelling like roses and smoking a cigar. i wonder if he gets to drink coffee while he reads. this sounds crazy, i know. but i grew two human beings inside myself and i am supposed to accept that without worry.
my daughter fell asleep in the car on the way home from school yesterday. when we got home, i undid her carseat buckle and her head rolled over my way. mommy? my shoes are just fine. have a good weekend.
it's saturday and i'm going to eat avocado. i am going to drink coffee. i am going to dream about people i don't know or ever think about in real life and i'm going to email a few dead people.
i'm going to have a good weekend.
because my shoes are just fine.