i would like a do-over

this past week was an all out fail.
there was the night i threw up so violently that i broke a ton of blood vessels in my face .
then when had to cancel finn's third birthday party at the last minute because of rain. yes, i know, those of you not in southern california do not care about my whining that it has rained one day this entire month. but SERIOUSLY...it has been 75 degrees and sunny since new year's day and it decided to pour rain for the entire day i planned an outdoor party at the park for my three year old? the day after, it was sunny again. and i didn't have a backup plan because our house is not conducive to having a ton of people over. (issues with neighbors who don't like noise.)
i made rainbow cupcakes for her party. spent almost an hour piping different layers into the cupcake liners so that it would be a "rainbow cupcake" and not a nasty tie-dye cupcake. (yes, i understand fully the irony of worrying about nastiness while making cupcakes full of food coloring.) after baking, it looked like a hippie convention exploded in my oven. layered cupcake fail. although i brought them to my coworkers and was told they were delicious. silver lining.
finn is super sick. borderline "going to the er" sick for a couple of days there. her doctor says she does not have meningitis or pneumonia which i assume was said to assuage our fears but did not help when i was sleeping in her toddler bed with her because she was crying and screaming in her sleep.
(fyi- toddler beds are small.)
at one point, she sat up in bed while i rubbed her back and she pointed at my stomach. in between her crying and fever moaning, she said:
i have a baby brother or sister in there.
yes, you do.
yeah, because you have a baby in your belly.

perhaps not so much of a fail after all.